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Pll with social anxiety?
do you sometimes feel like you live in a h*ll hole like sometimes actually most i feel like my life is meaningless and i hear the phrase so many times live rather than exsist and i can only cry b/c im trying so hard to chage and i feel like im still in square one..while every1 is enjoying there life having bf and partying im still….just…….there and i hate every minute of it…it relly does suck….i ask my frinds if they arent busy and they always are,and i feel left out and lonely…this is the worst feeling in the world ..i try to stay positive but some days i just feel relli sad b/c im like this…out of all the people in the world why did i have to have selective mutism…why me…why cant i be happy…i pray to gad so he can help me…but it seems i don’t get much help and i wonder if my life is doomed to be this way until i pass on ….and if so whats the reason of living…dnt woorry im suicidal or what eve. i couldnt think of taking my own life..its just my life is kinda depressing ..ive made drastic changes..and improved alot but i stil feel left out 
…dont tell my …or lecture me on what to do i already know what to do and im doin gthem im in clubs i strike up conversations in fact i met 2 pll last week…and i even talked to them w/ out hestitating its just..why can’t i be blessed w/ loving friends who are happy to see me and go out w/ me and have a wonderful bf…why me of all people on the face of the earth why me…why do i have sm…:(
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ya i kno …sometimes i wonder if god hates us..maybe thats why he gave us social anxiety :9 i have a list of other things i’d rather be than social anxiety…id rather be in a wheel chair…id rather becolor blind…id rather be 16 & pregnant…i’d rather be gay even or ven homeless @ times/…b/c SA is f*cking un fair..u dn’t even ask for it ..it just comes to you..and thast what i hate the most
I know what you mean! It really sucks! But you have to keep in mind that everything happens for a reason (whether you know it or not) Anyways these vids might help or inspire you or something:
I completely disagree with you that you need a boyfriend to live. I, and almost all of my friends have never had a boyfriend and we are completely fine with it. And wtf partying? How is getting drunk and being a sl*t going to make you happy?
Where I live there are plenty of people with various disadvantages: mental disorders, speech deficiencies, physical handicaps, orphans who live in shelters, homosexuals, colorblindness, whatever. I know I personally wouldn’t care if someone I knew had selective mutism. But we try to accept them all. I’m sorry you don’t live in a similar society. However, I do know that I have a friend whose brother is in college and she says it is AMAZING. Apparently everyone there is very accepting and create a community sort of relationship. It’s better than high school, so know that’s coming.
Tip: I used to be deathly shy as well. But as I overcame my fear and started to accumulate more friends I realized that shy people were often ostracized not because other people didn’t like them. It’s because they’re so self conscious they don’t try to join them. Don’t even worry for a second if they think you’re weird. Even if they do at first often times they will come to accept you and like you for your quirks.